Every time I want to give up on him there’s 

always something inside telling me to just 

 give it time.

That awkward moment when you're angry at
  your boyfriend and he suddenly kisses you


 

Happy New Year !!!

The Upcoming New Year Is A Perfect Time to Forget Sorrows and Remember Good Things in Life. 

Happy New Year.

Merry Christmas for you my someone :]

although, I don't know how to say our relationship, but I really gve my special christmas for you ...

I wish, you thought like quote below...

this is first time since our 5 years together, we can't spend our christmas just because our separating..
i still hoping that you want look at me, even just for one time...
i keep give you christmas card, but you don't want to see it..
so hopeless, so pathetic..
and you live so happilly :[


Merry Christmas for my Broken Heart !!  

Diary : How to forgetting and Moving On??

where's your promises??
Why do you make my heart anxious by not even calling?

it hurts!!

She comes off as strong, but maybe she fell asleep crying. She acts like nothing is wrong, but maybe she’s just really good at lying.

 

 

[Video]4 tune - I Miss You

so..
I try to made little mv hehehehe ..
music video about me :D

recently, i like to listen 4 tune - i miss you ... (thanks to Ms. jia qi, for made me know this song)
the lyric tells so much about me.. well according to my experience..


i made this video when i'm down..
coz i've to face that my bf step over my trust, i still love him so much..
but it kind hard to made our relationship back as usual :(
i dunno why he must did it to me,..


mmmm.. just watch it if you like :D

[Funny} G-Dragon my Type (so BACKOFF) :p

Hhaha iseng-iseng ga bisa tidur nemu artikel ini, lumayan lah bisa bikin kalian pusing dikit haha..

Hati2 yah bacanya nanti kalian beneran naksir Jiyong  lagi hehe 

[Quote] I miss You but ...

[Paula] Pain

 My FUTURE is Your PAST now!!

[Paula] Hal Sederhana Yang Diinginkan Perempuan

Setiap manusia pastilah memiliki suatu hal yang diinginkan, termasuk wanita. Wanita memang makhluk yang sulit ditebak dan terkadang sering membingungkan pria. Tapi sebenarnya wanita tidaklah serumit dan semisterius yang Anda kira, asal tahu saja apa yang benar-benar mereka inginkan.

Berdasarkan poling yang dilakukan oleh Yourtango, ada 10 hal sederhana yang benar-benar wanita inginkan yang mungkin mewakili kebanyakan makhluk hawa tersebut.


1. Penghargaan
Siapa bilang pria saja yang butuh dihargai? Wanita pun ingin opini, karir, hobi, teman, tubuh dan pikirannya dihargai. Jika Anda tidak setuju dengan apa yang dilakukan atau diucapkannya, cobalah menghargainya dan berpikir positif bahwa opininya merupakan kontribusi yang berarti bagi Anda, ketimbang harus menentang terlalu keras atau marah-marah.
>> Setuju !!! :) tidak hanya dihargai tapi wanita menurut saya ingin sekali dimengerti !!

2. Seks
Tentu saja wanita menginginkan seks sebagaimana halnya pria. Tapi yang harus diingat, seks yang diinginkan wanita bukan hanya sekedar 'seks'. Memberikannya sentuhan fisik yang kecil seperti pijatan di bahu, kaki atau kepala pun merupakan salah satu bentuk seks yang menyentuh bagi wanita.


3. Romantisme
Suasana romantis bisa diciptakan dimana saja, tidak harus dengan makan malam atau nonton film romantis di bioskop di luar. Nyalakan beberapa lilin di rumah Anda dan perlakukan wanita seperti layaknya pacar yang benar-benar Anda idamkan, bahkan jika sudah menjadi istri sekalipun.

he’s never on my list n not my type actually…

When i met him, my mind spined round coz he's really not my type !! *so embarassing*

Tapi ketika aku ingat jika ditelpon i've so much fun with him!
So i decided to trust n date with him!!

Padahal ga pernah masuk daftar
gebetan… (kan kenalnya cuma lewat telpon! Hihi)

Makin lama smuanya makin terbuka, karena qt pacaran dulu bru brsahabat smuanya jadi kacau!

males banget ngadeppin
kelakuannya yang suka ajaib,
ngeselin, bikin bete berhari2, ga punya prinsip, dan "gag perhatian n gag bsa berkata2 sm sx"
sekali…bener2 ga mature, selfish dan
really annoying…

I wanna end this suck!!
But he always find a way to make me
sure of this relationship when my heart feel there's no hope…

He was the 1st man i called honey, n 1st man i gave my whole heart coz i trust this relationship..
I realize no body perfect n' i'll always back to his arms even he makes my heart full of pain!

even in his worst…
I still can say…
"i don’t care…i love u…i love
the whole of u…
You're my ecstacy, so addicted with u!
Well its true, its me!! Mybe its wrong but i don't mind if i can't find the truth! Love is blind!!
I will fight 4 this love!
Love u my best damn thing→rio
:-*:-*

gag ada ujung'nya :D

capeekkkk..
Rasanya gag tahan!!
Permasalahn ini gag ada ujungnya!

[Quote] Our love

Feeling the fire of existence everytime you are near my heart is deeply stolen as your love has stayed here. No one ever hold back what i felt inside separating pieces of memories made ride within the tide. To say love you is never enough for you mean much more to me for heaven dwells in where you and i used to be. I will take your hand in faith hoping our hearts wont feel the pain of what we had endured when we lost hope for hardship's reign. I love you with all my heart for you breathe life into me as i am arrested in your all where i always want to be. Listen to whispers of my love that is coming your door for loving you is what making my heart soar. So take my heart and soul it's yours, forever more and lead me to the place i once bloomed in love before.

[Lyric-Barat] Ne-Yo feat. Rihanna - Hate that I Love You

That's how much I love you
That's how much I need you
And I can't stand you
Must everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile? (No....)

But you won't let me
You upset me girl
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget (that I was upset)
Can't remember what you did


But I hate it...
You know exactly what to do
So that I can't stay mad at you
For too long that's wrong


But I hate it...
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don't want to fuss.. and fight no more
Said I despise that I adore you


And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah...)
I can't stand how much I need you (I need you...)
And I hate how much I love you boy (oh whoa..)
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so (oh..)


You completely know the power that you have
The only one makes me laugh


Said it's not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I... love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain't right


And I hate how much I love you girl
I can't stand how much I need you (yeah..)
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just can't let you go
But I hate that I love you so


One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me
And your kiss won't make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me...



That's how much I love you (as much as I need you)
That's how much I need you (oh..)
That's how much I love you (oh..)
As much as I need you

And I hate that I love you so
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can't stand how much I need you (can't stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go (but I just can't let you go no..)
And I hate that I love you so

And I hate that I love you so.. so...

[Photo] Bego dan Oneng

Hmmm..

Dah 2hr gag bcra wf mario h1yquw tcinta >.<
ntah apa yg ada d pkran q skrg..
Msh kpkran wkt ri jumad.. Knpa bz jd bgt ?
Koq q bza liar kyk gitu..
Ingin sx dgr suara'na, kabar'na.. Tp q diemin kyk gni bkn krn gag ada alsn..but wkt ri jumad q d cuekkin mpe jam 12 mlm..
BT bgttt mpe q sms mw putus ma dy, n' q gag akn maafin dy..
TRuz pgi'na dy blg maaf cz dy ktiduran but q gag pdli q blacklizt adja nomor'na..
Gag tega juga bwd kyak gini..
Ntah apa yg ada d pkran q, td mlm q sms dy blg kao q msk rumah sakit cz overdosis obat..
Hahahaha..
Dy bilang cih dy strez wkt dengar itu but gag tw bener pa gag..
Hmmm mpe skarang kayak'na sudah 100x missed call..

Kalo ditanya rindu ma dy..
Absolutely I Miss Him Very much...
Rindu stengah mati, bru kali ini qta gag bcra sama skali..

Sebenarnya cma iseng bwd sms kyak gitu, but kliatan'na d teruskan adja..
Xixixixi...

[Paula] About Me..

Dari luar kelihatannya aku tegar, bahkan tangguh mungkin begitulah sebagian diriku. But sebagian lain diriku sama sekali tdk spt itu...
Kontradiktif, sosok yg labil n' reaksioner dalam kadar yg lumayan serius..
Well.. I think!!

Sebenarnya aku takut menunjukkan kelemahanku atau org membaca diriku..
So, aku mulai menutup perasaan dengan rapat-rapat dan bergaya spt org yg slalu happy. But kenyataannya aku jauh dari yg namanya happy..
Aku tertawa dlm hati, tawa yg getir, pahit n' absurd, bahkan mengerikan jika seseorang mendengarnya. Org bisa mendefinisikan apa saja tentang diriku sesuka hati mereka but mereka tetap tdk akan tahu kebenarannya. Orang tua ku pun sulit utk mendefinisikan diriku secara tepat.

So, what make everything be sure ? NOTHING,
Yg ada hanyalah perjuangan anak manusia untuk mewujudkan kepastian-kepastian kecil itu sepanjang hidup..

Yeah it's me PAULA
someone who still waiting a miracle..!!